Diary

2009-11-14T22:58:00.007+08:00

13nov09

First of all, Happy 17th Birthday Nurul Atyqa!

Blissedful 17 years (:
Love you.

Basically, yst went to town with iman.

Coz we were lyk fuckin bored lor.

So we trained to orchard.

Went to several places and browse some things there.

Walk,walk&walk till we are tired.

Headed off to paris, went to iman's blk and take the car.

Went off to sempang and eat.

And meet my donkey and lepak at 185.

Waited for the rst and went to och.

Kecohrable uhhhh! xD

Suddenly, i received a msg from someone.

I was kinda of shocked.

As of today, get to sleep 5 hrs only?

Wokeup, siap and headed to expo with family.

Thought of buying clothes but nothing much there.

Same old stupid things there.

What a boring country.

How i wish S'pore was more exciting. -.-

Im currently at hme now.

Have no plans.

Mayb jst lepakin later at paris.

Toodles!

2009-11-11T15:42:00.008+08:00

Im so damn beat tired!

Entered johor last night with my family.
Planned not to follow coz i was sleepy.
But my aunt asked me to tag along, so i agreed.
Bought a sling bag, ciggs and chewing gums (:
Reached home straight, changed and went to my dreamland.
And so due to yst, i have difficulties of waking up.
Instead, i went to my afternoon class.
And here i am bloggin away!
Not going out today i guess, stay home.
I need a good sleep. Soon!
Guess what?!
My fucking brother just sucks.
He is a one big damn fucker.
Sume barang aku kau nk jual. Fucker.
Make sure kau dapat kan lappy aku alek! Setan!
And that is why im using my aunt's lappy. -.-
That is why there is no pictures.

Btw, im looking forward for my class chalet which falls on dec!
Woohooo! Let's get tipsy baybeh!

Okay! Im done blogging people!

how have you been doing out there?
imy. :'(

2009-11-10T14:25:00.000+08:00

What a life.

Day by day, life just sucks.

Finding out something bad after one another.

Never stop popping up problems.

Be it about relationship, family, friends and studies.

Firstly, I miss having a relationship.

Secondly, you found out someone betrayed you.

Thirdly, about money.

And lastly, about my attendance.

Such a big betrayer you are fucker! Pfffttt.

I wont elaborate more cause no use talking.

When will all these nonsense stop?

I just hope for a miracle to come by one day.

Lesson learnt: Never trust a person even if its your bestfriend.

2009-11-06T22:35:00.002+08:00

Hey bloggers!
Im now back at my blog.
Im sorry for not updating.
Been busy and lazy nowadays.

I just will make this post a shorth one.
Currently im now at Hadi's crib.
Later on will be going chalet and party all night!
Now, it a new month...
And somehow i miss you boy.
All those memories we had.
But its just a waste just like that.
The worst part is, tonight is our supposed to be one year anniversary.
Not to forget your birthday.

Although how much i hate you after what u have done to me, i still miss you.
I would like to wish you a happy 19th birthday!
Be happy always with your loved ones.
Smile always and wish you goodluck in everything you do.
Takecare boy.
Much misses.

2009-09-24T17:39:00.005+08:00

Hello guys!
I know its been a long time since i update.
The last was like 10 sep i think??
Ive been busy uhh this lately.
Im so so sorry guys.

So lets start by wishing u guys Selamat Hari Raye!
Saye nk mintak maaf kalo ade salah silap ke kasar bahase.
Tolong maafkan ye. Dan halalkn makan dan minom saye.
I know im late. Haha. But at least i still wish right.
My raye celebration was not that bad afterall.
This year, my family baju colour is orange!
I didnt buy any new clothes this year.
Shocked right? Kasot baru pn tk beli.
Saddest thing is that i nvr get to celebrate with my mom...
But she post me a raye card and my raye bag. Lawa tau.
Thankyou mother! I love you.
Ive raye pictures to upload.
But the sad thing is that, i dnt have the usb cable.
Ill buy the cable soon and upload kay guys?

Yesterday, didnt work actually.
But i called the shiftleader saying that i wanna work as i was bored at home.
And so i worked at 7pm-12am. But in the end i extend till 2am.
Got a free cab right as it was midnight already.
Headed home with other 3 of my colleagues.
Reached under my block, sit and smoke for awhile.
Called eeka asking where are dey at.
And they are at our usual drinking place.
All of them drink till they drop.
I asked bby whether cn i drink.
He said can, but pandai jage diri.
So when i was sitting under my block, there's this blonde hair guy came.
Sitting next to me, asking so many questions. KPO!
Then off i went to meet eeka and the rest.
Yesterday was hectic man! Drink till we drop!
But im sorry if i dissapoint you deary.
Are we becoming worst or better?
If to you there's not much hope, then let go.
I love you.

Ill end it here.
Wait for my next update with pictures aye!

2009-09-10T17:50:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHA!
STUPID SPAMMERS!
GET A LIFE BITCH!
JEALOUS PER AKU NGN DIE LAST LONG?!
HE'S HAPPY WITH ME AND IM HAPPY WITH HIM LAH KAY.
TAKDE MASE NK LAYAN NIE SUME!
SO AS HE TOLD ME, JUST IGNORE!

Goodbye Suckers!

2009-09-09T15:01:00.000+08:00

Before i forget,
Happy 10th Monthsary Love!
Which is on every 7th of the month.
Im glad that we lasted this long and it will till eternity.
Thankyou for the love you've showered me.
Im sorry for all my wrongdoings kay?
Ill be a good girlfriend towards you kay baby.
I hope you like the cap that i bought for you.
I love you always, endlessly baby!

2009-09-09T13:38:00.001+08:00

Its a new month of the year.
fasting is going to end soon!
And Hari Raye is coming up.
Looking forwardddddd.

Yst i work at night.
Baby planned to send me.
Unfortunately, something happened bet me and him.
Im really really sorry baby.
I really didnt mean to hurt you.
It hurts me seeing you in pain.
I promise you i wont do it again aites?
To make things clear, me and him are just friends okay.
Dont think too much aites.
Just rmmbr that the one that loves you is only me.
I realised that for these past few days, you treat me like an angel.
I really love that way of you treating me.
Cause ive been waiting for that moment.
And finally that moment came.
I hope aft this incident, you will still treat me that way.
If you think that i dont love you anymore, then why am i holding on to you right.
Dont worry baby, i still love you and will not stop loving you.

The quote: " Yes! Ill promise not to do it again! (with those hands actions) "
Remember? I wont forget aites.
I love you baby!

To you girl,
Why have you change your attitude uh?
Dont you realise it?
Im just sad that you changed towards me.
But its okay aites.
Just be happy with your life.

2009-09-08T17:09:00.000+08:00

Hey!
Sorry for not updating guys!
Ive been busy nowadays till have no time to update.
Ill just have a short update today.
As i have to bathe and go to work soon.

Okay.
Lets start with last week.
Went to baybeats with the girls and my friends.
Went for two days straight.
It was quite bored uh bored my friends made the day brighter!
And i had big arguments with baby on that particular week.
Not elaborating anymore as im lazy to do so.
Ive pictures taken but its with syaf and eeka's camera.
Ill upload the pics when i gt it from them aites?

One of the days, i went interview with iqek at mac call center.
And they said they will call us for training if we get the work.
And i thought i didnt get as tey said they will call me lastest last fri.
So on Sun, i received a call from them, telling me to come for training on last sat n sun.
So i came at 9am-6pm. It was confused at first.
But afterall, im okay already.
I have to do a role play on my training.
So scary sia. Nervous gileeeee!!
Bt i just take a deep breath and do my best.
And i passed my role play!
So yst was the first day of work for me! Wooots.
And today i had to cover wan for work.

Ill update soon aites.
Just wait for my nxt update.
Im off to bathe now.
Takecare readers!

2009-08-25T22:46:00.001+08:00

Here's the pictures for our outing!
Ive get all the pictures already.
Enjoy the pictures okay!

Sheesha outing.

Followed by Changi Airport!
Insane Us!

Spot the heads! Haha.

That's all with the pictures.
Wait for my next update!

2009-08-24T17:03:00.000+08:00

Hello readers!
At last i have a time to update my blog.

Lets start with friday.
Friday went sheesha with mamat, iqek, kocok, afan, iman, fareyhin n zaa.
Went to this sheesha place tt ive nvr went before.
The place was crowded but overall it was okay.
Can watch movie somemore. Cool righttt?
We ordered strawberry and green apple flavoured sheesha.
It was quite boring but till we gt to changi airport and eat popeye!
It really made my day at changi airport.
It was very funny lah siots.
Us doing crap things! Hahaha.
Proceed to pondok and slacked.
Went home ard 3 plus and sleep the min i reached home.

Saturday.
The first day of puase.
I breakfast at my great grandma's house.
Ate mee goreng and some kuihkuih.
Ard 9 plus met iqek and the rest at pondok.
And somehow it was raining heavily.
Then it was like very cold sia, shivering!
Something happened on that night.
It was all misunderstandings.
But he tend not to solve it but drag it.
What can i do afterall? -.-"
Went home ard 4 plus lidat.
Reached home, he txted me.
Msged with him, and it all ended there.
Dont wish to elaborate more.

Sunday.
Went to my aunts house at simei to breakfast.
I ate mee sotooooooooooo!
Thought of not going out after buke.
But ended up going pondok as i was bored.
Then something big happened bet me and him.
I really dont wish to elaborate.
I will keep it to myself.
But what i can say is it was a sad ending afterall.
Im really sorry, i felt guilty cause....
And i dont know that you made this little promise to yourself.
Its not that i dont love you okay.
Its not that i dont care about us.
Nvr once in my life i will stop loving you.
I thought that night was the last goodbye for us.
I walked off with a wet face thinking about you.
But im glad that we are okay now.
Really hope in this fasting month, we will get better.
Just hope for changes in it.
Once again, im really sorry baby.
Will we ever be apart again?

And today.
Did not go to school as my eyes were heavy.
Tomorrow diedie i must come cause i have to give the letter to my Ca.
I just hope that my appeal is approve. Pray hard for me.
Will be lepak-ing later at pondok.
Toodles!

And ill upload the pictures once i gt it from Iqek&Fathu.

2009-08-19T16:17:00.000+08:00

Guess whatttt?!!?!
I did not attend to school today.
And i have a test today.
Like fuckkkk you knoww!
I woke up lateee. -.-"
Just feel like quitting school.
Cause im hopeless in this course.
I just dnt know a single thing.
Amazing right? Pfffttttt.
But i cnt simply quit school.
Cause i wanna have a good future.
Ill just have to try hard...
Hw i wish im a genius!
That will be great right.

Yesterday night met bby.
Mok chang called me.
Saying tt he is ard my block.
Met him, bby and acit.
Lepak, chit chat jap.
Then me&bby went toff to mac.
Filled up ourself with food.
And off we went to mustafa center.
I bought baby and myself each escada perfume.
Then i bought a puma jacket.
And a keyboard protector.
The total cost is 193 bucks!
Like cb right.
Padahal barang ckit sia kte beli.
Harapkn name mustafa jek, step murah.
Danggggg it!

So my money left with 434.
But i have to save 200 bucks.
And i left with 234 for my own expenses.
Its like within a day the 800 is gone! -.-"
Can i have more money please?
And i fell in love with this men's perfume.
BAby have a small one before. SOdapppp.
It makes me melt till the floor. Huakhuak.
Today, im being a goodgirl.
I washed the clothes at home.
As my grandma is sick and no one is at home. (:

Kay lah.
Im off now.
Fasting month is round the corner.
And im craving for KFC!
Anyone wants to accompanny?

2009-08-18T17:46:00.003+08:00

This blogger is like shit!
Cannot upload photos. -______-"
Sorry for not updating.
Ive been busy nowadays.
Busy going out and stuff.

Firstly, like finally ive gt my bursary money.
I had to go on stage.
Like what the fuckkkk?
Ive got stage fright some more.
But its okay, i went up cool.
I went up with smile and pride.
Cam paham jekkk akuuuuuu -.-"
And today, i checked my bank.
Like finally the 80o bucks is inside!!
So fucking happpyyyyyyyy!
But ive to give some cash to my grandma.
Save some cash for my future.
And the rest, its shopping time...
Will ask bby to accompany me.

Secondly, attended school today.
Teacher told me that the debarment list will be out this thurs.
SHe told me that those who gt the warning letter,
Most probably will gt debarred.
Oh shit! And one of them is me.
Ill have to appeal so i can take my exams.
Today school was interesting.
We had to do a mini project for our ifs prac.
We had to come out with our own food packaging.
And just nw, we had to go to any supermarket to gt ideas on what to do.
Me, asila, athirah and hafidz were in the same group.
We went to Sempang Bedok Shop&Save.
We decided to design a choc milk packaging.
Aft tt, we went to kedai kopi and planned our things.
Pecah kepale siak pikir.
Satu satu stress nk mampos.
Da lah panas, rimas, stresss!!
Cuaca mcm johor siak.
I mean its worser. Damn!
Can i have winter please?? (:

Thirdly, can i let out something here?
About my inner feelings.
We had a time off for one week.
And i dnt know what will happen aft this one wk?
I think we will stay this way?
Whereby, we can have fun but with limits.
I think that will be better i guess.
Im confused right now.
Why cant we just be perfect?
I understand that no one is perfect in this world.
But i just wish for you.
The you who gave such love before.
Being more romantic, soft spoken and etc.
Where's those inspirational words?
Why cant all this just happen again?
Couples with imperfection?
Wish i could turn back time.
But i guess it wont fulfill.
Ill just to bare with whatever happens.
But i dnt know for how much longer.
Wish that one day God will open your heart.
Let you think thoroughly.
But whatever it is, I still do love you boy.

p/s: Get well soon grandma!

2009-08-14T15:34:00.000+08:00

Gd evening earthlings!

I absent myself from school again. -.-"
The reason is because i went back late yesterday.
Yesterday was a bored day.
I slept as soon as i gt bck home frm school.
Till ard 10pm?
Then i called iqek asking where is she.
I was bored so i decided to meet her at 185.
There comes with iqek, mamat and afan.
Lepak lepak, talk crap, laugh laugh.
Something happened, iqek fell down frm the seat!
HAhaha. Very funny sia you.
Tkde angin, tkde ribut, jatooh. xD
Mamat&afan stim ready.
Off we went to p.ris park including yan.
Very funny uh the 3 of them.
Satu satu muntah drg peh reaction kekek siak.
Paling kekek skali yan uh! Cute siak kalo die stim.

Then i went to meet bby.
He fetched me at dte.
While the rest of them went to mac.
SO hows things bet me and baby?
One week time-off.
But yest was random he wanna mit me.
So i dropped by his hse for awhile.
We had a good time seeing each other.
Dapat lepaskn rindu.
But something funny happened!
I was like OH FUCk!
Not elaborating more.
So i wnt be meetin bby till tuesday i tink?
Ill bare with it.
But this one wk is nt for you to enjoy kay.
Missing you.

Today, no plans!
SO fuckin boredd!
Maybe lepak or wat uh later.
Anybody gt plans?
Picit uhh kay.

Till here then.

2009-08-12T00:29:00.000+08:00

Dedicated to you my dear.
Read the lyrics aites?
<33333

2009-08-11T16:35:00.012+08:00

Sorry readers for not updating my blog.
Ive been busy nowadays.
I know my blog look dead.
So im gg to upload today.

7 aug.
Lets start with my anniversary.
Firstly, Happy 9th Monthsary Baby!
Im so glad to have known you.
To have you by my side.
You showered me with love.
Showed me care&concern.
You've light up my life.
Despite the fights tt we had gone thru,
we still made it thru baby.
We hold on to each other no matter what.
I wanna to apologise for all my wrongdoings.
I really appreciate it deary.
But my anniversary day was a cock up day.
All our plan was all cock up.
Planned to watch G.I Joe with baby.
In the end he watched already.
Like what the fuckkkk?
Ended up lepaking with his friends at night.
At night, went riding with bby, mimi, adk, imman, ahmad, wan and afan.
I was so sad on that day.
I wnt elaborate more.
However, we went to eat at BBQ chicken at dte.
Thankyou for the treat deary.
But afterall, i still love you.
{071108, till eternity baby!}

8 aug.
On that day, plan cock up again.
Nothing much to do.
I went out with ayu.
Teman her go bugis to find something fer her bf.
Then proceed to grandlink meet ayuu&bf.
We karoke for 2 hours.
Then went to meet baby at ws.
Go to Nazri's chalet.
Actually wanted to watch movie, but ended up not.
What a day i have?
But in the end at night, watched UP with him.
I thought it was a 3D show, but not! -.-"
Something happened inside the theater.
Wont elaborate more aites.
Off to baby's hoouse.

9 aug.
It was National Day Celebration.
Happy 44th Birthday Singapore!
Went to watch fireworks with baby.
We wanted to eat first at city hall.
But it was all packed.
So we decided to find a pkace to watch the fireworks.
But in the end we went to watch at Singapore stadium there.
We waited long for the fireworks. Haha.
We had a laugh while waiting.
So overall, the fireworks was beautiful!
Then we proceed to changi airport.
I brought him to eat Popeye at T1.
That's the first time he ate there.
Haha. Baby so outdateddddd!

10 aug.
Plan to go town and browse some shirts.
In the end tk jadi jugak.
Ended up going to tampines one with baby, adk&ahmad.
Walk around T1, ahmad bought a shirt and shirts for him
As me and baby survey things to shop. (;
Wait for my bursary moneyyyyyy!
I wanna buy some things for him.
Just wait kay. (:

So that's for those 4 days i went out with baby.
It was kinda sucky for those 2 days.
But i still enjoy watching fireworks with you.
Thankyou for taking off days just for me.
Appreciate it baby.

And today, one word i can describe.
Boring Dayyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-06T23:50:00.000+08:00

Firstly, before this great night ends.
I would like to be the last person to wish you.

Nur Syafiqah Bte Mohd Johan.
17 years of teenage life.
Happy 17th Birthday To You!
May all your wishes come true.
& may u become a successful lady in the future.
You are a grown up now.
So i hope you would make the best for you.
Make you&your parents proud okay?
Change for the better if you need to.
Hope you enjoy your day birthday girl!
Semoga dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki.
Amin.

Takecare bestfriend.
Smile always.
& im justa phone call away.
Too bad i cant celebrate with you on your day.
Cause you have others to celebrate with.
Meet me soon aites?
Ily and imy so much.

p/s: Ive managed to stop smoking for 2 days! Some improvements. Weeeeeeee~

2009-08-05T15:16:00.000+08:00

Hello Earthlings!

Did not go to school again today.
I was so fucked up!
Its been 2 days did nt attend school this week.
I need to buck up on my attendance like seriously.
I wanna make an improvements.
Ill try my best to go to school everyday!

Yesterday, went out with baby.
Met him at his house first.
But reached there, found out he was already asleep.
Asssqqq! But i know you are tired.
So let him rest for a couple of hours.
Wake him up. Asked him to eat.
He sleeps like one cute baby. xD
Get ready and went to downtown.
Bought tickets for 'The Hangover' at 115opm.
While waiting we went to burger king and eat.
Then we went to play arcade to kill time.
Gerekkk siol~

The show was about to start and we went in.
The show was fucking funny okay i tell you.
Me and baby laugh like nobodys' buisness.
Laugh till our tummy crack. Haha!
You guys should watch it lah.
Its really worth watching it.
Overall, it was a great night baby.
I really enjoyed the day with you.
Love you till my last breath.

Not to forget, Happy 18th Birthday Izzah!
May all your wishes come true.
Be happy always (:
Btw, my bestfriends' birthday is coming soon.
Just in a couple hours of time.
After the clock strike 12am.
And that wld be her big day! (:

Till here earthlings!
Toodles~

2009-08-03T21:55:00.001+08:00

What's wrong with this fucking blogger again?!
Always making problems. Stupidddddd! -.-"

Lets start my day.
Firstly, Happy 18th Birthday To Athirah!
She's one of my classmates.
My all time laughing gas! xD
May all your wishes come true.
& may you lead a happy life kay?
Smile always girl. Takecares!
Gi enroll and past cpt2 kay?
Jadi leh tompang aku. xD
Yuppppppppp! Haha.

Secondly, its a new month of the year.
Im glad its a new month.
Cause last month sux.
And i hope this mmonth will go smoothly.
No more relationship problems please?
Keep my mind away from such problems.
And keep me smiling always.

Thirdly, my anniversary is coming.
National Day is coming.
And guess what?!
My bursary havent come in.
Stupid Tampines Cc! Damn.
Thought of enjoying but see how lah kay.
Hope i get my money pretty soon please.

Fourthly, today is a laughter day for me.
I went to school today although i was tired.
Took cabby to school, cause i thought there's a test.
Bt in the end none. Pffffffft~
But its good tt i came.
Cause i get to learn about the pracs as i was absent all the time.
Today, i laughed all the way at school.
Cause of my friends, they made my day. (:
Just now, met nad and his pakcik under my block.
Slack slack slack, laugh laugh laugh till my tummy crack!
And nad's pakcik which is 20 yrs old happened to be my bby's old fren.
And i happened to know him too as he was me&my bro's primary schoolmates.
The best part was, nad get bullied by us rabak2! Haha.
But afterall, she's still the best. Ily adek.

Lastly, I love Radin Mohd Shaheen Till My Last Breath!
Shits do happens between us but we still hold on strong.
Im glad that we could manage to go thru this together.
But i hope things would improved between us.
-071108, Till Eternity.

p/s: Get well soon to bby's bro!

2009-08-03T01:03:00.010+08:00

Like finally!
Yes! The blogger is okay.
And now i can upload my leftover pics.
Ill let the pictures do the talking.

The movie i watched recently.

When we are bored.

2009-07-31T01:41:00.001+08:00

I think ill just update.
Cause my blog looks dead.

So ill tell you guys about this whole week.
Ive been active for this whole week.
Spending my time going out only.

One of the days, i went to watch 'Public Enemies'.
There's only me, baby and adk.
The movie was great, but i fell asleep half way.
I was too sleepy. Buang duit siak aku! -.-"
But i wanna watch again.
This time round i wnt sleep. Hehe.

I also did spend time with iqek.
We had a great time together.
We should have this more often.
But i understand tt both of us have a life to lead.
So, its no one to blame.
Im happy for you bestfriend (:
Smile always aites?

Btw, ive been sick for the past few days.
I had flu, cough and a slight fever.
I hope ill recover soon.
I did nt attend school for the past few days.
I thought of going to the doctor.
But i dont have any money.
My school allowance and bursary havent come in.
Stupid bursary, so long.
Ill gt my bursary before or after national day. -.-"
I guess ill just have to wait patiently.
But now, my dad gave me my allowance already.
I gave 100 bucks to baby.
I asked him to hold for me as i wanna save.
So by the end of the year, ill have 1200 bucks!
Wow! So great! (:

I dnt know whats wrong.
But i just think tt ill let you enjoy all you want.
Its better that way i guess.
Cause ive asked my friend's opinion.
I think ive been meeting up with you too much.
From now onwards, i think things would change?
He told me nowadays im acting differently.
Oh well, im just confused.
I just dnt see the reason why you shld be treating me harshly?
I just lost hope suddenly.
I myself dnt know whats the reason.
But nvm, ill just be patience.
Time will tell okay.
Hope it wld be better for us.
Love you, Im sorry.

Ill upload all the pics when this blogger is okay!
Im sorry guys. Takecare.
Ive to sleep, tmr got test.
Toodles~

2009-07-30T15:52:00.000+08:00

Ill upload my post soon!
Once this stupid blogger is okay.
Fuck this blogger!
Sorry guys!

2009-07-24T12:53:00.006+08:00

Old picture.

Hello bloggers!
Just came back from school.

School was funny today with those people who cheered me up.
I came late today, 35 mins late.
Its considered as absent cause its aft 30 mins.
Like cb right my Ca?
Today's prac was okay, interesting too.
Just now my Ca asked my clan, you all fight with erni uh?
Then we was like err no.
Then she said so obvious.
Then Nad said, she like always dnt come school only.
Then we lazy uh.
I told my Ca, see like me, come to school.
At least i made an initiative.
She said keep it up with a wide smile.
I told you, im a good girl. (:

Im just dissapointed in you boy.
Firstly.
Yest, you did not meet me.
Told me you follow your friend to do motor.
But at last, where did you go? Johor right?
I texted you waiting for you to reply till i fall asleep.
At last you text me wen im asleep telling me your batt was flat.
But at least you cld take an initiative to inform me using your friend's phone right?
But why you did not do that.

Secondly.
You did not go to school today.
You told me to go, i did.
I listened to you.
Bt why you cant listen to me?
Dont give me tired as an excuse.
If you're tired, why can you go out yest?
But why not school?
I just want the best for you okay.
Cant you understand?
For the first time you did nt tell me you love me b4 you put down.
But what did i do wrong?
Im sorry if i do that to you, that was my mistake.
I just want us to be happy baby.
I just wanna be a good girlfriend to you.
I will meet you today. talk things out.
I love you baby!

p.s: Before, my life was all in the dark.

But now, you've light up my life baby.
I Love You, Till Eternity.

2009-07-24T01:03:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: Dissapointed.

2009-07-22T22:18:00.005+08:00

Life?

Life is really unfair at times.
Im having some difficulties.
Im having some personal problems.

Firstly, ive received a warning letter from my Ca. Like fuck!
Ive to start coming to school now.
Or else i wont be able to take my exams later on.

Secondly, im not going to stay at tampines by nxt month.
Ive to shift house cause this hse is going to sell.
Just now i went to see the new house at macpherson.
Like fuck, so far! Ill be lonely then.
Cant meet baby so often. :'(
Nanti nk gi skola sume leceh. Haiz.
Maybe i staying at my aunts house at simei uh. See hw.
Can anyone find me a rental house at p.ris please?
So expensive sia wanna buy house nowadays.
If only i would struck lottery, it would be like oh my god!
So heaven sia! How i wish.

Thirdly, im really out of cash for now.
I really need some cash like seriously.
My pp8 is fucking low, $0.03.
Believe it or not?
Then i cannot contact baby uh like this.
Ive not been meeting him this lately.
He got a new job as a mac rider.
He's getting busy with his life now.
But although we cant meet always, you are still in my heart no matter what.
Ill support you throughout baby.
I Miss You Sayang!
Meet me soon aites?
I love you.

p.s: I wanna struck lottery please?

2009-07-19T23:39:00.014+08:00

Sorry for not updating guys.
It will be a long post, be prepared.

Friday.
Went to meet baby as he did not work.
Then meet ahmad&sastri together with baby at mr prata.
We eat eat eat eat eat eat eat eat like a piggy!
Then proceed to downtown to meet adk.
We planned to watch harry potter.
But the timing was all like fuck.
The early2 timing all full already.
So we have no choice, they planned to bowl.
We booked the lane, but our number was like 104?
Its still far away behind. Like fucker.
Then Ahmad send sastri home.
Left with me, baby and adk.
We slacked at coffee bean while waiting for ahmad.

After playing bowling, something happened bet me and bby.
I was jst playing around but you take it to heart.
I did apologised alot of times but you ignored.
Then went to eat at tampines safra there.
I just kept quiet all the way.
Then he like wanted to feed me but i refused.
I was too pressured and walked away and cried.
Then he fetched me at where i was.
That night i was so stupid to ask him tt question.
Cause i was really at lost, too pressured.
I am really sorry to say those words bby.
I didnt mean to, dnt take it to heart.
I just burst out those words cause im too pressured.
I didnt mean to from the bottom of my heart, i swear.
I wont be like other girls, trust me.
Afterall, i still love you baby no matter what!
Mark my words.

Till Eternity, 071108 <33

Saturday.
Went to my great grandama's house.
My kakak sedare tunang.
Then after maghrib, i went off home.
Siap, planned to go bedok amek surat.
But tak jad cause its raining.
Meet iqek&hadi at pondok.
Slack and slack and slack.
Then terserempak with ahmad at pondok.
Then iqek jumpe mamat jap, left me and hadi.
Then iman came, followed by ahmad and nazri, adk, hakim&his sister.
They wanted to go bowling, so i followed.
Text baby to ask him meet me at dte.
Then i apologise to him already.
Went off like ard 3am, slept at baby's hse.
I miss sleeping with you deary.

Sunday.
Woke up at 3pm.
Eat with baby.
Watched tv with bby.
Then i mandi as bby had to go to work.
So he told me he went off first as he had to rush.
I met iqek at bustop mamat.
It was raining just now heavily.
Took 17 to Bedok to take the letters.
Eat nasi goreng daging at Alfiah.
Kiwak, tk sodapp sangat siak.
Nasi goreng daging die merepek.
Proceed to my house, send letters, tukar baju and went out again.
Slacked at mamat's void deck including dyla.
Then dyla gave us the ndp "tattoo".
Im done with the post.
So let the pictures do the talking.

I did it for Iqek. Cool right? (:
I did it at a piece of tissue paper.
I paste it on the wall. Mendak siots!

Baby get this toy named Mr.Pisang.
He desperately wanted this thing.
He tried playing at the arcade to get this thing.
But he didnt get. Kesian nye.
But ended up playing the machine inside bowling.
And he finally got one Mr.Pisang!
He's too obsesssed with it.
He gave it to me and i hang it at my bag.
Ill keep it all my life, its a memory.
He's just so cute to the max lah.
Geram tau tengok die.
Mintak kene gigit in the face!

Thatt is why i love you Radin Mohd Shaheen.
You are one unique person with an interesting personality.
You are mine, no one can take you away from me.
BabyDale<3

2009-07-17T00:48:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not updating bloggers.
Ive been busy these few days.

Lets start with yesterday.
Went to school. Yay!
But i thought my Ca is going to give me some lectures.
But instead not. Weeeee~
Did not attend P.E lesson.
Actually the whole classs did not.
Only Asila, Shah and Hafidz semangat! Haha.
I went home straight, sleep the whole day until nxt morning.
I know, like piggy right. Hehehehe.
And baby did not come to school yesterday.
Shit you! Malam keje pt club nak.
Suro gi skola tnk bagun.
I was like curious abt him working at club.
He told me it was a road marshal but ended up being a bouncer.
How come i cant trust you that much?
You wanna know why?
Cause you've abandoned it twice.
The quote : Its difficult to gain ones' trust back.

So today, went to school again.
Received a message from Nad saying tt class starts at 8.30.
Baby send me to school.
We thought of going breakfast but tk jadi.
Bought lab coat as my Ca keeps pestering me for one.
Entered classroom at ard 9am.
Baby send me up to the lab, there's this chinese girl.
She walked pass me and baby Gila peh budak!
My teacher never come.
Ended up doing test paper.
Finished it up and go for our 3 hrs break.
The longest break i ever had. Haha.
Then we went to eat lerk thai at ws.
Matau to buy a set lunch 1 for 1 meal.
It was delicious though!
Then i went off frist as baby reached ready.

Proceed to baby's hse and sleep till evening.
And something happened.
Not elaborating more.
And i cried.
He just loves to make me cry.
Then okay already.
At night, we went lepak.
But the best thing is only the two of us.
Mendak kepeeee siots!
Haha. But its fun cause its with baby!
Then ard 12.30 baby send me home.
Otw at ws there, there was this 2 TP motor.
I thought he was not going to stop baby.
But at last they did!
Its bcoz baby nvr pasang P plate pat depan.
Naseb baek kasi warning jek, tk kene saman 120 bucks!
That boy uh, very degil you know!
Beat you then you know!
Naughty boy but i love him you know (:

Tts all for the post.
Sorry if its long.
Night2!

2009-07-15T01:05:00.014+08:00

Old picture. Pictures not taken today. No camera/phone spoil. Sorry.

Hello earthlings!
Just got back from going out.
And here i am now blogging.

Did not attend school today again. -.-"
Woke up late again.
So i plan to sit at home today.
But i was bored and hungryyy.
My grandma cooked bubur. -.-"
Mcm nk kasi org saket sia mkn.
So i msged baby asking him where is he.
He said he otw home from Tm.
He fetched me under my block.
Baby bingit with me cause i meet him late.
Chill uh, mcm stakat 10 mins jek sia tunggu.
Bukannye berejam-rejam. Pfffttttt.
Ended up me apologizing to him and we are okay already.

Proceed to central.
Eat chicken chop. Sodapp kepe!
Terserempak with Shah.
Then Shah told me to watch out.
My CA wants to give a letter to those who have been absening from school.
Oh Shit! Fuck sia! How sia like this?
Just wait for tmr to get lectures frm my CA.
Then met my dad at central posb, take my school money.
But while waiting, something really funny happened.
Its just between me and baby.
Joke of the day sia! *inside giggling alone*
Proceed to abg natch's house tgk budak kecik.
So cute sia. Mintak kene jitak! Haha.

Went to hijau and meet ahmad, sastri and wan.
Slack slack slack slack slack slack.
Adk wanna play bowling at Dte and they agreed.
But ended up watching 'Haunting In Connecticut'.
We watched the 9.30pm show but we were 15 mins late.
So we missed some parts of the show.
But we get to catch up with the story.
The show was overall good.
But some parts ade suspend2 sia.
Terkejot terkejot siak. Haha.
Take note of this:
Baby was scared!
Baby closed his eyes and ears.
Haha. Takot pahhhh boy? x]
But he's so cute but im the cutest xD
You guys should watch it.
Its base on true stories.

Watch the show okay guys!
No regrets watching it.
Goodnight!
Mimpi manis (:

2009-07-13T22:15:00.001+08:00

Second post of the day! (:
I read iqek's blog.
And see her latest post abt the personality quiz.
It was kinda interesting.
So i decided to try.
And i got mine!

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

2009-07-13T21:53:00.009+08:00

Nothing much to say.
Have difficulties on waking up to school this morning.
As i cldnt sleep well last night thinking about you.

So school was actually quite bored today.
But it was so chaotic cause of my beautiful friends.
They made my day. Thankyou guys! (:
Went home straight after school with iqek.
I was darn tired and sleepy and restless.

Hafidz, Haiqel, Shah, Athirah, Erni
Nad, Me, Asila
JF0904C !
(sorry no other pics! paham2 ehk krg. haha!)

Under peer pressure.
Am i thinking too much about you?
Till something is disturbing my mind all time.
I started to think negative about you.
Whereas you said you started to be the old you back.
But i didnt realise it cause its just the same.
My feelings are just not right about you.
Cause of that bitch, things keep bothering me.
I just think that something or someone is coming between us.
But i will try to keep my mind positive.
But what if it doesnt work?
Oh God, please help me straighten my mind.
Help me to look after him cause God, he's the one i treasure alot.

Conversation me and bby had otf at school.
Baby: Dont call me anymore.
Me: I was like why sia?
Baby: Call me baby.
Me: Haha. *giggling inside*

Im off now!
I need to do my filings of notes!
Toodles (:

2009-07-12T18:04:00.007+08:00

Sorry for the outdated picture.
I dont have any new pictures of mine.
Ill take new pictures aites when i buy a new phone.
Soon okay peopleeeee!

Lets start with yesterday.
Yesterday went to my great grandma's house.
My makcik tunang. Haha.
Out of the blue sky sia! But its okay.
Congratulations anyway. Last long aites aunty!
I wear my black long skirt and 3/4 shirt.
Its been along time since i wear that skirt.
The last time was when i met baby.
Our first love. Hehe.

Stayed there till around 10pm.
Met iqek under the block.
And we proceed to p.ris.
Went to baby's house.
Then iqek went off to meet her love.
I stayed with bby at his house.
I get to hug him all i want.
Kiss him all i want.
Im just so happy.
Missed him so much!
We settled things already.
I hope there will be no more war bet me and him.
I love you BabyDale! Hehe.
Juliet wont hurt Romeo's feelings aites.

Today, woke up late.
Stayed home as i was tired.
Nothing much to do at home right now.
And yah, baby said i look wonderful yesterday.
He said i wear girlish and decent clothes suits my loving personality.
Haha. I know right. *inside blushing*

Im off now.
Missing bby right now.
Toodles!

2009-07-11T03:06:00.010+08:00

For You <3

Just feel like letting it out.
Thankyou for showering me with love.
Giving me care and concern that i need.
Thankyou for all those advices and support throughout.
I really appreciate for what you have done for me.
We have been alot of ups and downs througout.
We solve things together, we talked things out.
But dear, why must you keep on doing this?
Throw your revenge-ness please.
Cause it wnt help in our relationship.
You said you've stop contacting her?
But what i found out jst nw?
If you nvr pass your phone to me, i bet you will keep it to yourself.
Is this what you said to me you want trust from me?
How am i suppose to give you trust when you've abandoned it?

You know what?
Im sick and tired of tolerating your nonsense.
Do i deserve this like seriously?
Sometimes, i just gave up on you, you know that?
But im still trying my best to change you.
ended up like one fucking shit!
All i can say is just do whatever you want.
You want to contact your fucking bestie which i call a bitch, up to you.
If you think she is like your first priority, then go ahead.
I wont stop you. I just cant be bothered already.
All i can do now is just watch.
Its like an interesting drama.

Till here then.

"Love is like the truth, sometimes it prevails, sometimes it hurts."

We were like Romeo and Juliet.
I thought we'd do anything for each other.
But Romeo didn't break Juliet's heart.

p.s: Walaupun hatiku kau lukai, Namunku masih menyayangi, Kerna sehingga waktu ini cintaku masih untukmu...

2009-07-10T15:58:00.005+08:00

Hello bloggers!
Finally, my blog is alive!
Im sorry for not updating my blog for long.
And sorry for keeping my blog private.
Cause my blog for now is so cock up.
So i plan to re-do everything.
And now its look like a new blog! -.-"

Nothing much to say.
I did not went to school today.
Total, i only went to school for one day this week.
Attitude sia me! Haha.
Please syahirah, buck up! Dont be lazy lah!

And ive been having problems with baby.
Some misunderstandings.
Come on lah, i slack with those guys at school, u know them what.
They were just accompanying me. Nothing else.
But if u wanna do the same back to me, with your revenge.
I dnt know all your girl friends what. Like wtf sia.
Use ur brains, dnt follow your fucking ego too much! Or else people will hate you.
Throw away your ego and people will love you.
You will be a better person.
When we fight, who are the ones who always finds and apologise?
Do u have the initiative?
Please think thru alright.
Trust me, throw away your ego.
Its becoming from bad to worst.
No matter what, ill always love you!

Lastly, im in need of money!
Im in need of ciggies!
My fucking bro go and take my last stick!
Sucha motherfucker! Pftttt!

Im off now.
Take a shower and meet iqek for my one stick! *inside gigglings*
Takecare earthlings!